Foreverness

Do you believe in forever?

What kind?

Fairy-tale forever?  The kind of make-believe where a knight in shining armor rides up on a white stallion and sweeps you off your feet and carries you off to a happily-ever-after life of bliss?  It’s the stuff of an innocent Disney movie that sweeps us, as little girls, off our feet. I believed in such stories until I learned what divorce was and that fairy-tale forever was meant only for Sleeping Beauty.  And what if the love and foreverness of the Jesus I learned about in Sunday school was make-believe, too?

Fast-forward into my adult years.  Still somewhat believing that the grown-up version of forever could come true, I relied on the human forever … way too much.  I believed the “I care,” “Trust me,” and “I promise” messages spoken to me.  Even more so, I trusted those messages when they came from Christians.  I let off the hook nonbelievers when they didn’t follow through with their words.  But Christians?  I expected more of them, and I didn’t think that was naive … until the day the icing on the cake and final wake-up call came, the day a Christian whom I respected and who had exemplified character and integrity reneged on words of assurance to me.  “Well, that was true then but it’s not now.”  Wait.  Whoa!  What?!?

You and I share the lost hope of foreverness because of some of the same experiences:

  • The “I do” that ends in unfaithfulness
  • The “I promise I’ll never do it again”
  • The “Well, people change, that’s just the way it is”

The sand on which I built my house of trust shifted, collapsing my faith completely.  In my world, truth doesn’t change, and especially if you’re a Christian. Truth is supposed to be TRUTH Truth is supposed to be FOREVER!  The abyss of mistrust I plunged into left me emotionally isolated and questioning everyone.  I spent days, weeks, and months wrestling with God, trying to understand what is truly real and if there is an absolute forever.

The search led me to the simplest, yet most profound, life-changing conclusion — for me anyway.  The answer didn’t lie in figuring out why people do what they do; the answer was found in the fact that I was looking for a nonexistent “happily ever after” in flawed, sinful people instead of God.  I believed wholeheartedly in the lie that Christians were the equivalent of God here on earth.

But God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind.  Has he said, and will he not do it?  Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it? (Numbers 23:19)

We all want to be seen in the very best light, don’t we, especially when we identify as Christians?  Christian = Christ-like.  However, identifying as a Christian is not the equivalent of being a perfect human.  Our perfection comes only because of Jesus’ work in and through us.

When I put my hope in people, circumstances, and the things of this world, my heart sinks into hopelessness.  None of those things fulfills my needs. But when I fix my eyes on what lies beyond this existence, peace washes over me, carrying me to the indescribable contentment of the forever found in a loving God.  He has escorted me from the yesterdays of my life, when I had no hope, to my today, guiding me in my daily walk here and now, and He is already present in my future, waiting for me in eternity.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8

From Genesis 1:1 to “Maps,” the Bible is Truth and Jesus IS my real-life knight in shining armor. The darkened doorway that lead to certain death is now my grand entrance to the celebration of life now and eternity.

He IS my authentic, eternal forever.


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Pam Weyant traded the harsh Midwestern winters for the sunny South.  When she is not spending her time as a freelance court reporter, you will find her loving up her adorable cocker spaniel, hiking, traveling, writing creative nonfiction, or working out.  Her passion is sharing her story so others can join her in celebrating the freedom found in a redemptive Savior.


Photo by Mehmet Kürşat Değer on Unsplash

4 thoughts on “Foreverness

  1. Love this! SO true – even those who we feel we should be able to trust the most can let us down. Thank you for this! Would love to hear more of your personal testimony and feature it on my blog! My blog is all about encouraging and empowering women, and if you have a story to share, please send it to me at softcoverheart@gmail.com

    Thanks and blessings,
    Leah

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