Have you ever felt like you were in the middle of a transition or process yet nothing was really happening at all? Maybe you’ve been praying about something and it seems that there are never any answers, just more and more questions and uncertainties? I’m confident that many of you reading this right now can totally relate and, sister, I’m right there with you … I get it and it’s NOT fun, especially to us as women who want to know the plan, find the solution and/or fix the problem!
I have walked through so many of these seasons of uncertainty in my life … some short and bearable while others were long, painful and completely exhausting. When you walk through those long seasons, it’s so easy to begin questioning not only yourself, but also God!
I got married at the very young age of 20. We had a few good years of hanging out and having together and then few more amazing years of babies being born and watching all the “firsts” happen! But around year 10, things seemed to begin unraveling. We were doing everything right (or so I thought) … we were very involved in church, my husband was a deacon, I was leading women’s ministry, teaching Sunday School, serving the Lord, sowing seeds into our children and praying blessings over our family, etc., etc. From the outside, we seemed like the model family who had it altogether, yet behind the mask, there was so much hurt and unhappiness.
This went on for another very hard, at times excruciating, ten years until one day I learned the reason my husband was so unengaged … why nothing I did seemed to be working … why God wasn’t answering my prayers in the way I hoped He would. I was devastated.
Without going into all the details, I’ll just say that I quickly realized I was about to become a statistic of divorce. In the course of a mere few seconds, my entire world changed and I went from a family unit to a single mom who did good to crawl out of bed and make it to work most days! I literally felt like someone had punched me in the gut and left their fist lodged there continuing to hurt and cause pain, eventually forming a huge hole.
I cried out to God and, just as He always is … He was right there! Things didn’t get better overnight and He didn’t magically snap His fingers and heal my broken heart. See, that’s not the way He works … He loves us way too much for that! God promises us in His word that He has a plan for EACH of our lives…
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future. ~ Jeremiah 29:11-13 (NIV)
…but in order for us to walk out that plan, we have to trust His timing, even in the midst of the mess!
For there is a time and a way for everything,
although man’s trouble lies heavy on him.
~ Ecclesiastes 8:6 (ESV)
As hard as it was and as hurt as I was, I leaned into Him, claimed His promises and committed to trust His timing and plan for my life. I walked through several years of being molded, mended, taught and ever so gently disciplined. He grew me into a better mother, a better friend, a better Christ follower. And literally, once I opened my hands and said, “God I give it to you … not my plans, but yours,” He opened the door for a wonderful new journey for me and my kids. Looking back on the process now, I can so clearly see why I had to wait … why nothing would have worked a minute sooner had I tried to force it.
Sweet sister, TRUST THE PROCESS because the process is what makes the outcome God’s very best for you! Don’t miss the blessings of the process by trying to get to the other side … He truly is working all things for YOUR good in every single detail of the process.
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Amber Edwards began Blessing Bag Ministry, affording her numerous opportunities to share her love for the Lord with many lost and hurting. A native of Birmingham and Huffman High School, Amber is happily married with two teens and working as a Legal Assistant/Paralegal. She enjoys leading women’s small groups and serving as Captain of the Events Team at her church. Her true passion is for others. Read Ambers BoP bio here.