Wow! I never thought that it would be so hard to express my feelings about being a woman.
The time I’ve spent thinking and procrastinating about this topic is ridiculous, but it has been necessary. Praying God would give me the right words, and frustrated that they never came, I realized the story has been with me all along. It’s a dark story that’s difficult to talk about, but one that needed to be exposed to the light of God’s truth.
The story as I know it begins with two teen girls, both married, and both producing children as fast as they were weaning them. The first was in her mid twenties when her husband left home one morning never to be heard from again. The second was so poor, she lived in a home shared by multiple family members, some of whom physically abused her during drunken rages. She was even kicked in the stomach once while carrying her baby. These two women were my great grandmothers. Their stories were shared with me in very limited detail by my mother. I never knew my great-grandmothers, but I saw the effects of their mistreatment.
Because I value my relationship with my mom and brother, I’ll spare personal information, but know that our immediate family was unable to break free from the consequences of alcoholism and abandonment. So, when I was unable to come up with an answer for what I love about being a woman, I began to think about the people who influenced me from childhood. As I thought about the women in my life, God allowed me to see the negative traits that followed my family like a dark cloud. Bitterness, insecurity, and fear were clearly identifiable, but the most devastating was the inability to experience a healthy, loving relationship.
Since a good bit of my early adulthood was a continuous cycle of poor choices, bad behavior, and insecurities, it was very difficult for me to find anything I loved about being a woman. Sadly, my view of womanhood was flawed. God has been working on me a while about this faulty belief pattern. With His help I’m making progress. It’s very difficult to break a cycle that’s been present for years. And it’s just as difficult to attempt to restore broken relationships. But, I know God is able. His mercies are new every morning. In the meantime I’ll focus on Him, and allow His presence to continue softening my heart.
Finally the good part! Let me tell you about the characteristics of being a woman that I love. Those He is currently restoring in my life – the characteristics he wove into my DNA – the very attributes of Himself.
This is the woman He created me to be.
1. A woman who loves unconditionally.
2. A woman who embraces healthy relationships.
3. A woman who speaks words of life – dispelling all lies.
4. A woman whose beauty comes from a pure, devoted heart.
5. A woman who trusts God in all things, experiencing the
freedom of releasing control.
6. A woman with a responsive, submissive spirit.
7. A woman of peace, content to be still in the presence of God.
8. A woman who is forgiving and kind.
9. A woman who is gracious, and giving.
10. A woman who believes her worth is found only in Jesus.
The Lord your God is with you, the mighty warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in His love, He will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.
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Inspiring others to place their hope in Jesus is Jill Jessen‘s desire as she writes. Having received inspiration from daily devotionals for years, she appreciates writers who have shared their life with her. She believes we learn from living and that everyone has a story to tell. Jill and her husband Greg have three children and are now entering in to the “empty nest” phase of life. The birth of their first grandchild this year was a sweet reminder of Gods perfect gifts.