It was Day 6 of 21 Days of Prayer, and I was about to get convicted.
Preparing myself to head to church for prayer time, my heart was nudged. A soft voice said, You have been given a talent. Use it to bring a great return. Don’t bury it. Uh-oh. That voice sounds very familiar.
I have had a persistent struggle with writing the last several months. I don’t believe in writer’s block, but I do believe in self-doubt and self-limitation. Oh, and the devil, too.
As I picked up several cards to pray over after I walked through the sanctuary doors, I wondered, What’s today’s word going to be? I like having a word, just a single word, to ponder for the day, filtering my life, current circumstances, and relationships through it. However it may apply, I think on the word throughout the day.Anointing. That was the word.
I am competitive. I always have been. There may not be external evidence of it, but a dare-me attitude lurks beneath my prim-and-proper composed surface. I love achieving, meeting goals, and finishing first — who doesn’t? — not to arrogantly flaunt but to prove to myself what I am capable of doing. I take great delight in experiencing growth and pushing myself.
So, Day 6 Pastor Layne Schranz spoke of our anointing as the equivalent of the presence of the Holy Spirit within us. (I’ve only been a Christian all my life, but sometimes I need to be reminded and have things spelled out.) Because the Spirit lives inside me, of course I’m anointed. If you’re a committed follower of Christ, you are too.
But each time I sit down to write, I feel as though I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, drenched in perspiration and strapped with a bungee cord. I can’t do it! Don’t make me! I wail as I plunge headlong into the uncertainty of a safe landing.
Yes, I know that stands in stark contrast to my mile-wide, mile-long risk-taking streak that I call a birthmark. That big ol’ splotch God placed on my life. Since He created me, He knew He could trust that my daredevil attitude would take on a challenge when called on. So why do I labor so much over stepping into the anointing?
Lack of confidence.
You experience the same self-doubt. I know you do. We’re human. We buy into the notion that an anointing is a superhuman ability possessed only by those who are favored, who have been born under some “special sign” or into the right family. So the battle of comparison and feeling inadequate defeat me before I even try.
That is so not God.
Isn’t God the Giver of all good things? Doesn’t His Word tell us, “but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing”? (Psalm 34:10) Take a look at 2 Corinthians 1:21-22.
“Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.”
How much more proof do I need that I am capable of my calling than being told that the Holy Spirit resides in me, at the ready to work through me, if I will just allow Him?
He can’t be found just at church or only in “special” people. We don’t leave Him on our nightstand when we get up in the morning or in our cars when we head into work. He goes with us everywhere to guide, counsel, and encourage us. The Holy Spirit stands at the ready to flow through us as we show the world the power of God through the anointing we are equipped with. Can’t you hear Him reminding you, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”? (Philippians 4:13)
Confidence, with a capital “C” — no, make that all caps and bolded — CONFIDENCE — pulses through every nerve ending in my body when I allow the Holy Spirit to go into action in and through me. Arriving at the finish line, I hear myself say, I wasn’t sure I could, but I did it! I met that deadline! Oh, wow — she said my words inspired her! And I owe it all to Him.
I can see our heavenly Daddy beaming with delight and giving me a fist bump as He confirms for me what He predestined — “Attagirl! I knew you could do it!”
And that is so God.
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Pam Freitag Weyant traded the harsh Midwestern winters for the sunny South. Her best friends are her steno machine (she works as a freelance court reporter), her aged but adorable cocker spaniel Jake, and books. She is grateful for time spent traveling, writing creative nonfiction, and working out. Her goal each day is to share her story with others so they may also find freedom in a redemptive Savior. Read more of Pam’s Breath on Paper bio here.