“Let your heart therefore be wholly devoted to the LORD our God, to walk in His statutes and to keep His commandments, as at this day.” 1 Kings 8:61
‘Would you be willing to talk to my friend? She just got a breast cancer diagnosis.”
I remember hearing the report of “Invasive Ductal Carcinoma” and feeling the numbness that seemed to consume the room. I could hear the doctor saying words, but surely she wasn’t talking about me. Not me. This can’t be happening. It was like the words wouldn’t make sense. Carcinoma? What does that mean?
Stage 3 Triple Positive Invasive Ductal Carcinoma
In the next few months I walked through a strong regimen of chemo, complete with all the side effects. To prevent severe nausea with vomiting, I was given megadoses of steroids. My shiny bald head was easy on my vanity in comparison to the extreme fatigue on my body. There were days on end that I could hardly crawl out of bed.
Thankfully, it was in those long dark days that I learned what it looked like to lean on God more than I ever thought I could. More than I knew possible. He never failed me. God met me in my sick bed. He was ever there during those endless days…days that I had no strength and could do nothing more than simply rest, knowing His presence was with me. I drew strength from Him because I had none of my own.
Three years have since passed and my takeaway is of God’s faithfulness. My best response has been devotion. I am devoted to His goodness.
Certainly not perfect and at times not even deserving, but I know who my God is. My devotion is not based on me but on Him. He has never failed me. He is for me. While things didn’t look like I wanted during that season, I know I would not have the depth of faith in God that I have today if it weren’t for what I learned on my journey.
Your journey doesn’t look like mine. You may have walked through much worse or you may have had a fairytale life. God knows what we each need to find complete dependency on Him. Either way, the important part is to find your devotion. Allow God to use your journey to devotion to minister His love to those around you.
Ever few months I am asked if I will talk to someone who has recently heard those harsh words of breast cancer spoken over them. I am always ready to tell my personal story of the goodness of the Lord and His eternal faithfulness. I share how God did not cause the cancer but He steadfastly met me in the depths of treatment and faithfully meets me today, how He is no respecter of persons and He will do the same for them.
We have all walked through something that has given us devotion to God. Trust Him for yours… because you are what God says that you are. You are enough.
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Cindy Willingham is a landscape designer, small group leader, avid encourager, and sinner saved by grace who is ten years new to Birmingham, Alabama. Her sweet husband of 38 years, two married children and four grand-kiddos fill her life with unbelievable fun and sweet snuggles. She thinks God is awesome and that the best adventure starts with saying yes to that still, small voice. ~ To read Cindy’s BoP Bio click here.
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