If I asked, “What’s the first thing that pops in your head when you hear the word provision?” what would you say?
For many –perhaps you — the answer is money or some sort of financial security. While financial provision is important and a necessity in many areas of life, the years have revealed to me money alone cannot supply all my needs.
We all go through seasons of life where we feel like our needs aren’t being met … sometimes it is a financial situation, but many times it’s so much deeper. I went through a long season of living in an unhappy marriage where, not only did I carry the majority of the family’s financial burden, I did so with very little emotional support. Frankly, I quite often felt as if I wasn’t being provided for at all. This season went on for many, many years … the more I questioned and endured, the harder life seemed to become. There was never enough money, enough love, enough time, enough help, etc. I often cried out to the Lord with my “if” requests. You know the ones … “Dear Lord, if you could just (fill in the blank) then I will… The “ifs” didn’t work and divorce proceedings began in late 2008 and things really got tough. As a single mom with two young children, working a full-time job was challenging in and of itself, but add on extracurricular activities, dental and doctor appointments, church, grocery shopping, laundry, etc. … all with what seemed like little to NO help … I literally felt like I was being crushed under the weight of no provision. I started to wonder where my God was and why He hadn’t shown up yet! I did a lot of praying and a lot of searching and I made it through!
On the other side of that season into the light of a newfound joy, I realized that my God was there all the time! Isn’t if funny how it takes coming out of something to be able to actually “see” things clearly? I now know that the Lord allowed me to walk through a period of want so that, on the other side, I would recognize the true provision in my life. Through that long season, my precious Heavenly Father taught me that provision isn’t just about having your financial needs met … it’s so, so much more.
When the rain stopped and the clouds lifted, I was able to see clearly just how much He provided for me while I was walking through the storm.
And His provision came in so many different ways … the friend’s daughter who offered to take my kids to and from school so I could be at work early or late, another friend’s mother who wanted to ensure my kids had a great Christmas and slipped a crisp $100 bill in her holiday card to me that first Christmas, in healthy children who weren’t fighting for their lives in Children’s Hospital, in my health that allowed me to be that working, single mom providing for my family, through a friend who showed up every other week to cut my grass without saying a word or asking for a dime … it came in a thousand ways both large and small that ALL were part of God’s grand design to ensure that his daughter was provided for!
…for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. ~ Philippians 4:11-13 (NIV)
If you are walking through a rough season, I challenge you today to start looking at the little things that happen each day. The provision is there. We just have to take the blinders off to see it sometimes. God has not abandoned you, sweet sister … He’s there and He is providing for you in a thousand ways that, right now, you may not see or understand, but one day you’ll look back and be astounded at His divine wisdom and provision for just the right thing at just the right time. Repeat these words …
“I am a child of the Most High and I am provided for!”
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Amber Edwards began Blessing Bag Ministry, affording her numerous opportunities to share her love for the Lord with many lost and hurting. A native of Birmingham and Huffman High School, Amber is happily married with two teens and working as a Legal Assistant/Paralegal. She enjoys leading women’s small groups and serving as Captain of the Events Team at her church. Her true passion is for others. Read Ambers BoP bio here.