I am Filled

God Says I Am Filled - Jill Jessen - Breath on Paper BlogGod, Grant me the strength through the power of your Spirit to comprehend the height and depth of the love of Christ, and to KNOW this love which surpasses knowledge that I may be FILLED up with all the fullness of God.

As I walked the crowded paved path, I heard the loud roar of water pounding against rock. White, frothy clouds swelled around me and I felt a cool mist cover my face. Warm temperatures the previous week had melted the snow on the mountain and the water was falling at full force. The carved wooden signs at the edge of the path warned us of slippery rock and strong current, yet no one, including myself, slowed our pace. With our faces turned toward the sky, we were excitedly anticipating the moment the tree line opened to reveal the towering two thousand feet of rapids.Thinking back over the last year, if I had to describe myself as being a “glass half full or half empty” type of person, I confess, my glass has needed a refill more often than not. Several transitions with family and career had left me feeling lonely and confused, but even during these difficult times, I’ve had a clear awareness of God’s presence. His gentle whispers awaken my spirit and draw me to a deeper, almost reckless place of trust in Him. My growing desire to know Him drowns my internal emotional condition as He guides me to this place of complete trust.

While talking with a friend earlier this year, I shared a personal struggle of being unable to fully understand God’s love for me. She suggested I read Ephesians 3:16-19. In this passage Paul prays that the Ephesian believers would know the love of Christ and would be filled with all the fullness of God. Meditating on this passage of scripture, I quickly realized this should be an easy concept. God sent His Son to die for me. What other act of love is greater than that? Why could my heart not grasp that information?

Unfortunately, some early childhood experiences taught me a different kind of love. My young mind was molded to believe in a love based on works instead of worth.

God created everyone with a deep longing for love, but it is only His perfect love that satisfies. Satan’s goal was to distort my belief about love, enticing me to seek after anything and everything to fill the longing in my heart. Attempting to fill my cup with “lesser things” left a gaping hole of dissatisfaction.

As I’m learning to listen to God’s truth about me, I can reject the old belief patterns and begin to form new paths of belief by focusing on who I am in Christ. Holding up my cup to Him, He pours out His abundant love and covers me with grace.

“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in you.” -St. Augustine

During times of uncertainty, we can remember His promise that He will be with us as we go through deep waters; as we go through rivers of difficulty He keeps us from drowning. (Isaiah 43:2)

These words from Bethel music fill me with hope:

“Grander earth has quaked before
Moved by the sound of His voice
Seas that are shaken and stirred
Can be calmed and broken for my regard.”

The same God who parted the sea for His chosen peopleand calmed the waves for His fearful disciplescan restore my life and draw me to a deeper understanding of His perfect love.

My excitement over seeing the beautiful waterfall reminds me of the park ranger’s attempt to describe the “awakening” of the falls each spring. Living in the valley below the falls, he had learned the pattern of ebb and flow. He said, “The waterfall is never more beautiful than when you think it is gone forever, then you hear the roar, the thunder, feel the energy, and suddenly the water is flowing again, awakened to life.”

It is the moments that I am FILLED with the living water of Jesus that I am reminded of what being “awakened to life”really means.

Praying God’s love falls like a waterfall upon you today.

Because you are what God says that you are!  You are enough!


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Inspiring others to place their hope in Jesus is Jill Jessen‘s desire as she writes. Having received inspiration from daily devotionals for years, she appreciates writers who have shared their life with her. She believes we learn from living and that everyone has a story to tell. Jill and her husband Greg have three children and are now entering into the “empty nest” phase of life. The birth of their first grandchild this year was a sweet reminder of Gods perfect gifts.

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