“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.” Matthew 5:6
Hungry, I come to you, For I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You, So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees, Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
It was 18 years ago when I first heard those lyrics. My husband (then boyfriend) was in a Christian band with concerts nearly every weekend, playing both original songs and covers. One of the covers was “Hungr,” by Joy Williams, and it was the first time I’d ever heard the song. I’ll never forget the effect it had on me. It so perfectly described my spiritual state at that time, defining it for me when I couldn’t.
I had grown up in church, and spent my life dedicated to living holy and following all the rules, because if you love God, you do what He says. That was my understanding. But something was missing, what I didn’t know. I couldn’t explain it, which was so frustrating. Still, I went about life as I always had, walking that line and being a good girl so God would be proud of me. However, for years, I had this underlying feeling that I couldn’t shake, that there was more. There had to be. And even if I didn’t know what it was or looked like, I wanted it. I was desperate for it but had no way of comprehending what “it” was. I just knew that there had been an emptiness deep down, despite all my Bible knowledge and intentional rule following to make God proud. I wasn’t finding answers at church, either, because the church I grew up in didn’t teach on this “more” that I was seeking. They didn’t know anything about it.
Faith Remain, my husband’s band, was a far cry from what I was used to, both in music and spiritual beliefs. Opposite sides of the spectrum, in fact. The church I grew up in would’ve considered me a heathen for even attending a rock concert that played music for the Lord. However, it wasn’t until these concerts, that were flowing with passion as both musicians and attendees were genuinely worshipping God, did I start to understand the “more” I so wanted. Then there was that song; it’s like it cleared a fog and I suddenly got it.
The “more” I’d been searching for was a result of hunger. Hunger for His presence, hunger for a real encounter with the God I only thought I knew but had never really met. Hunger for a relationship with the God I’d only known as a far-off powerful deity rather than a close and caring Father. The realization broke me and set me on a journey that has reconstructed my entire understanding of who He really is…and who I am. The moment I realized this, I crumbled. Letting go of all my fleshly need for control and understanding and just letting Him be who He is, experiencing His presence as I was always meant to, I began falling in love with my Heavenly Father.
Maybe you’ve felt this way too; experienced a yearning for something more but couldn’t put your finger on what it is. It’s a feeling of looking around at where you’re at and knowing that “this can’t be all there is.” It isn’t. The reason you feel it is because you’re on the cusp of the vast “more” that God has before you. That yearning is the desire, the hunger your spirit is experiencing in order to draw you close to the Father, closer than you’ve ever been.
The beauty of it is that our spirit is intertwined with that of God’s, which is in constant pursuit of us. His pursuit of our hearts is what fuels our hunger to have more. More of Him and what He has for us. And He will never leave us wanting.
It’s yours for the taking. You can have it all when you embrace what it is: the Father’s pursuit of you, His child.
Hunger is what drives us in all aspects of life. If we are hungry, we must feed in order to survive physically. The same is true of our spirits. We should be so hungry for the Lord that the only way to survive is by spending time with Him and in His Word. And it’s there He meets us, fills and blesses; He satisfies our craving and spirits thrive.
You are what God says that you are! You are enough!
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Heather Whidden loves Jesus, is married to her best friend and is mother of 3 blessings. She is a professional photographer and has a heart for ministry. She loves spending time with her family and friends, writing and reading. Time and people is what she values most. You can read more about her here.