Delight yourself in the Lord;
And He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He will do it. Psalm 37:4-5
It was Day 3 of the 21 days. The first of only two mornings I sat in the live service. The pastor spoke about the woman with the issue of blood. He talked about how the crowd came just to see what all the hype was about. But the woman with the 12-year-old illness came with a mission.
Maybe she heard Jesus was coming and knew that he had made the blind see and the lame walk. Perhaps when she laid down to rest the night before she planned how she would mix in with the crowd for a bit. And just as he was about to leave, she’d stoop down and touch the bottom of his robe.
She likely thought he wouldn’t notice, but she knew that one little touch had the power to take away 12 years of agony. She rose that morning determined, expectant. She trusted that what he had done for others he would do for her.
And even though there was a large crowd, she made up her mind that today was her day. She was done with doubt and fear. She was sick and tired of being sick and tired. She determined her course of action. She was committed to seeing her healing come through Jesus that very day!
The pastor said we should do two things to receive what we are expecting: Fully trust. Fully commit. My prayer that morning was for God to change me. His response was, “Fully commit.”
And just like that! It hit me.
I’m not sure why it slapped me in the face that morning. It was a message that had been preached every 21 days. Sometimes the words are ‘go all in’ or something similar. But that morning it was as though I heard it for the first time. It was just for me.
God wants us to stop straddling the fence with one foot in the world and one foot in His Word. That was His message to me three days into the 21 days of prayer. “Commit to Me.“
For seven years, there was one prayer that I brought before the Lord during every 21 days of prayer. This year has been no different. It seemed to be one of those prayers that was going to require a lot of waiting. But God finally answered.
Perhaps it was really that I finally listened. It wasn’t about whether I did this as opposed to doing that. My lesson was that I needed to commit. Either way, God promised to be with me.
Boom! Prayer answered!
Sometimes, God says, “Yes, but like this, not that. Stop looking for the answer you want and receive the answer I’m giving you.” His answers always seem to grow our character without much concern for our comfort.
Thank you, Lord, for stretching us beyond that which we feel capable of to do that which you have ordained.
Hey there friend! Andrea McCaskey here. I believe everything happens for a reason, life is meant to be lived in relationship with others and there is beauty to be found everywhere if we look. I am a friend of God, wife of Jamal and mother of Brandon and Madison. Read more of Andrea’s Breath on Paper bio here.