Losing Control and Learning to Trust – Alyson Robbins

I see you, sweet girl, with your planner open on your messy desk—the desk that looks messy to an outsider but is actually organized chaos. You have each day so carefully planned down to the minute with color-coded categories to separate personal events from work activities. You take so much care to pen a To-Do list that will deem your day productive only to find it interrupted. 

Interrupted by the call for which you never could have planned.

Interrupted by the doctor’s words that bring disheartening news.

Interrupted by the loss.

Interrupted by the deadline when you aren’t quite ready to make a decision.

Interrupted by the unexpected financial setback.

Interrupted by the Lord’s prompting to go a different direction.

Interruptions are inevitable. We all encounter interruptions or delays to our plans. It’s how we choose to respond to the interruption that reveals the content of our hearts.

Can I be really honest with you? The perfectly planned day— the desire for control—is really an issue of the heart. In fact, controlling our environment leaves little room for trust. We cannot trust and surrender our plans when we doubt God’s goodness because it is then we will try to control. Could it be that we doubt His goodness? Could this be why we think our plans are best?

 “For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. To give you a future and a hope.”  Jeremiah 29:11

I’ve been there more times than I would like to admit. Questioning God’s goodness because His plan did not align with my plan. It’s not a fun place to be because it reveals the ugly pride in my heart. Time and time again, Jesus offers forgiveness and the chance to surrender. Every single time I am reminded,

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.” Isaiah 55:8

Maybe you have been there too. Wondering if you were ever going to learn whatever lesson the Lord wants you to learn because with every season change or interruption you are resistant.

Change is constant. It’s in the change and interruptions we find Jesus. It is there He wants to lead us deeper.

My summer has been full of interruptions. That project list that every type-A teacher makes at the end of May to effectively make use of all that free time…yeah, I didn’t mark one single item off that list this year. Surprisingly, I am okay with that. In the past, I would feel guilt and failure if I did not accomplish my list.

Instead, I am listening to Jesus whisper over me: Loosen the reigns on control. I’ve got a plan. Trust me. Have I not always loved you and provided for you?

Is He whispering the same to you? Is he beckoning you to loosen your grip on control?  

When we control, we miss out on miraculous provision and intimacy that comes with full reliance.

 “All the paths of the Lord are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and testimonies.” Psalm 25:10 

Despite the interruptions life brings, no matter the delays, will you choose to sing this with me?

“Your promise still stands 
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness 
I’m still in Your hands 
This is my confidence, You’ve never failed me yet…”

Alyson Robbins.  Wife to Alex. Mom-to-be. Daughter. Sister. High school English teacher in Jasper, Alabama. Runner and CrossFitter. Aspiring school counselor. Lover of books, rainy days, and the color green. Small groups and building relationships bring me joy. Typical of redheads, most days I wear what my husband calls my “sassy pants.”  Follow Alyson on Facebook.

2 thoughts on “Losing Control and Learning to Trust – Alyson Robbins

  1. Alyson, how beautiful you are! I wish all would learn to relinquish control early in life! It is paramount to the abundant life! I love you girl!


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