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I’ve had to do it in line for a car tag. I’ve had to do it at the restaurant. I’ve had to do it in the hair salon and I’ve even had to do it to get in church. What’d I have to do? Wait. That’s right, the twiddling-your-thumbs, tapping-your-fingers kind of waiting.
I don’t imagine that I will ever pray for patience. The way I see it, I won’t even know if I have more patience, unless I have a situation in which I am required to wait. And I really don’t care to wait.
In fact I could write my own Dr. Seuss book on “waiting:”
I do not like waiting.
No I do not.
I do not like waiting
and watching the clock.
However, I have been waiting years for some answers. Recently, I gathered my things and walked out of the doctor’s office. I had just been reminded that I am a lady-in-waiting. You see years ago, I took some medical tests and the doctor shared with me a diagnosis I did not want. Those were the facts as he’d determined. However, my relationship with Jesus wouldn’t let me take ownership of those facts. Like the game show host asks, I pondered, “Is that your final answer?” I knew that in my life God has the last word. So I began to pray about how to walk this out.
At the time, I didn’t really know much of what the Bible said about healing, but I had heard that God still heals and that facts are subject to change. So, I began to seek the Lord in an effort to experience healing in my body.
There were ups and downs, joys and frustrations as I took treatments, while attempting to learn and follow the Lord in this area. Through the years, the Lord has blessed me to walk in faith, continue to serve others and have supernatural joy. He is an awesome God!
I’m still waiting to see that doctor’s report line up with the report of the Lord, and I believe that one day I will. However, through this process, God continues to teach me more about him and what it means for him to be Lord of my life. As my relationship with Father God has matured, I believe His word is true, and He is faithful.
I have come to the conclusion that it’s not so much about waiting as it is about trusting.
Do I trust God? Like He asked Peter the same question three times, I imagine God is asking me “Do you believe?” And after some significant growth in the Lord, I can now say, “Yes Lord, I believe.”
I don’t have any answers for God’s timing.
I just believe.
I believe in God.
I believe that He loves me.
I believe that Jesus paid the price for my healing.
I believe that His timing is perfect.
I just believe.
“The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.” -John 6:2
If we don’t get that right, nothing else really matters.
So, I will believe that I am healed.
I will stand on God’s word that Jesus bore my sins and my sickness.
I will believe that by His stripes, I have been healed.
And I will wait on the Lord.
Cassandra Woods is an inspirational writer and speaker who has seen God’s word become real in her own life. She finds great joy in sharing God’s love with other women and encouraging them to develop an intimate relationship with God. Cassandra is married to Christopher and is the mother of a teenager and three young adults. To read more about her, click here.