I Don’t Have The Gift Of Faith…

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“A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.”  ‭‭ 1 Corinthians‬ ‭12:7‬

The gifts of the Spirit, it’s an interesting concept.  Isn’t it?  Almost like spiritual superpowers.  Actually, I’d go as far as to say that’s exactly what they are.  More than just an additional sense, they’re a supernatural ability woven into the fabric of our being by our Creator and Heavenly Father.  These gifts help make us who we are, shape the way we process and infuse our natural abilities, enhancing our natural talents.  But can we really say that we “have” these gifts?  Allow me to explain….

I’ve heard my mother-in-law, on several occasions say to me or to someone else that I have the gift of faith. My sweet husband has eluded to the same point more times than I can count, as well.  I know they’re making reference to the fact that when I’m believing for something, I don’t back down, I don’t waiver or doubt if it’s going to happen.  In that, they’re right.  I don’t.

 

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.”  Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬

Now for the record, I have to say that my human mind has no trouble questioning, from time to time, if the faith I’m standing on isn’t ludicrous or if it’s just my heart being in complete denial and refusing to except the truth that’s before me.  The funny thing about that is that’s actually ALSO true.

12136So then, which is it??? Right?  Well, it’s both.  What I mean is there are two totally different thought processes I go through simultaneously because there are two totally different sources fueling them.  One being my limited human mind – my soul, and the other my spirit- the one that’s connected with the Holy Spirit.  You following me?

I am a woman of faith.  I always have been, even before I ever understood that that’s what it was.  However, it always baffled me, until I started studying and understanding what gifts of the Spirit were.  Before then, I knew that in the face of uncertainty, I would have this curious assurance that no matter how things appeared, God had this and everything would be OK.  At the same time, many times over, I remember thinking to myself that it was nonsensical to hold onto such impossibility and that I was setting myself up for disappointment.  It took me a long time to realize that the inner argument going on in my head was between that of my human self and my spirit.  And my spirit knew who was right.  Time after time, my spirit was right, even to my own human amazement.

“What you talkin’ bout, Willis?”

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What I’m talking about is the fact that since my spirit is the one that has the unwavering faith, it’s not me that has the gift of faith. My human self, apart from my spirit, has limited faith.  Faith that I would otherwise have to work at, and I know it.  Especially in the moments that I find myself in a season where I’m not as close to the Lord for whatever reason of my own doing.  Its in those seasons I find my spirit gets quiet, and therefore so does my unshakeable faith; proving my point in that there are two different sources governing my thoughts.  My flesh man and my spirit man.

There have been so many times where I’ve looked at certain situations, even recent ones, and thought that it was hopeless. However, I would immediately curiously refuse to entertain that thought beyond that brief moment and would find myself completely certain that hopelessness had no authority in that circumstance. Sure enough, whatever the situation was, my faith fueled thoughts that I’d be believing for would manifest into reality.

The conclusion I’ve come to is that I don’t have the gift of faith, because I’m merely human.  Because these are gifts of the Spirit, they’re given to our spirit…so actually, I believe the gift of faith has me.  It’s simply my choice to as whether or not I allow that gift to operate in me.

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IMG_7722Heather Whidden loves Jesus, is married to her best friend and is mother of 3 blessings.  She is a professional photographer and has a heart for ministry.  She loves spending time with her family and friends, writing, reading, and traveling.  Time and people is what she values most.  You can read more about her here.

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