“For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light.” Ephesians 5:8

When my sweet sister in Christ, Tracy McDonald, asked me to write as a guest blogger, I responded with an excited YES! I love an opportunity to share the words of Jesus as they flow freely from my rescued heart. Tracy gave me the word “Wanted” to write about.

My first thought was “Wanted” is past tense, defined as a tense expressing an action that has happened or a state that previously existed.  

2 Corinthians 5:17 “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!”

Isaiah-9-2-The-People-Who-Walk-In-Darkness-Have-Seen-A-Great-Light-gold-copyBefore Jesus rescued me from the darkness and exposed me to His marvelous light of healing and life, I was living unconsciously and numb as a slave to the lies of Satan…a dead woman walking. I desperately wanted something or someone to save me from this awful place, Satan’s dark cell. I wanted deliverance from my past emotional pain! I wanted safety, peace, hope, security, and a love so deep I would swoon from the passion of the heart. I wanted Jesus, but I didn’t know Him yet.

John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy…”

Years and years of deep-rooted bondage through Satan’s torturous trickery, he would show up disguised as an angel of light, just as it is written. He would set me up and lure me in to fall deeper and deeper into his pit of despair, worthlessness, and hopelessness. He told me I would find and get what I wanted by conforming to the ways of the world and by putting my trust in worldly things and in man. “This is the way”, he would say, “I will give you what you have always wanted if you will call me master. But, if you don’t just wait to see what I will do to you.” He was like a pimp…Very Scary!!! Satan knew that I was severely unprotected, defenseless with no armor, no understanding of God, and vulnerable to his rape and attacks. Blinded… couldn’t SEE!

FPM_Psalm37.4_LockScreenBut, Jesus was finally on His way. His timing is always perfect and the divine plan and rescue of my heart had begun! Jesus, surrounded by His angels, arrived just in time to unlock my cell. He breathed His breathe of life into my dying body and carried me off the battlefield, away from the darkness, and safe in His arms. The angels were singing the most beautiful hymns as they encircled Him, cleaned me up, and laid me down to recover from the long traumatic journey and experience. Jesus never once left my side while I was healing! I received His power as strength and opened my eyes to SEE what I had always “Wanted”… a Glorious King named JESUS hovering over me….a savior, a healer, a protector, a provider, a mighty warrior, a joy in my heart, a lover of my soul, a supernatural strength, an unstoppable Hope, and freedom from the dungeon of the world.

Romans 12:2 “ Do not be conformed to the ways of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind…”

Philippian 3:10 I “Want” to know the Messiah– what his resurrection power is like and what it means to share in His sufferings by becoming like him in His death.”

**Enjoy this Ministering music that He sings to us:

“The voice of Truth” by The Casting Crowns

“Just say Jesus” by 7th Time Down

“Sweetly Broken” by Jeremy Riddle

“Say Amen” by Finding Favor

“Overcome” by Jeremy Camp





Beth McMillan is a child of the Most High God. He calls me “bride to be” and sees that I have fallen in LOVE with His son, Jesus. Appropriately named, Beth translates “House of God”. I work for Jesus as McMillan Interiors displaying His Splendor. Word of God speak…a creative vessel.


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