I prayed but God didn’t help.
As we conclude another 21 Days of Prayer and Fasting, I find myself reflecting on previous seasons of prayer and fasting. Although, I spend most of my prayer time praying over prayer cards and interceding for others, I do have several recurrent ever present prayer requests for friends and family for which I am in continual prayer that have yet to be answered. These are not little prayer requests. They are big prayer requests that I know in my spirit are in alignment with God’s will and would serve a Kingdom purpose; yet they remain unanswered. As I have waited over the years, I have juggled a spectrum of emotions from expectant anticipation to doubt, fear, frustration and certainly impatience. However, this 21 Days of Prayer and Fasting has been different because I am different. Something has changed in me. Maybe all the previous seasons of prayer and fasting has prepared me for the wait and it is only now that I am finally able to enjoy the wait with God rather than impatiently waiting on God.
God revealed to me in the last few days of prayer and fasting that He wanted me to rest and enjoy the wait with him; that the waiting had a purpose and was a reward for my persistence in prayer. God redirected my focus and transformed my perspective. With this transformed perspective, I recalled an experience I had in a waiting room many years ago. As I waited in a waiting room to undergo a breast biopsy after multiple suspicious mammograms and an inconclusive ultrasound, I struck up a conversation with another woman in the waiting room. We were both waiting to undergo our procedure. She appeared nervous and was alone. She was quick to share her story and let me know that she was afraid. I tried to encourage her and keep the conversation positive. We waited quite a while together and had time to get to know each other. Our wait was easier because we waited together focusing on each other and not the procedure and its unknown results.
This is how it is when we wait with God rather than on God. God wants us to wait with Him so that we can draw nearer to Him. It is through the Holy Spirit that we are able to wait. “Through the Spirit we eagerly await by faith the righteousness for which we hope.” Gal. 5:5 As we persevere in prayer, we are spending time with God relying on the Holy Spirit to enable us to faithfully wait. It occurs to me that waiting is an invitation to draw nearer to God. My heart is so overwhelmed to have the revelation of God saying to me “sweet daughter let’s wait together; I want to share more of me with you. Let’s not worry about the problem or its solution, but instead rest in the stillness of our closeness.” As the Holy Spirit enables us to wait, we can choose to soak up and receive all that God wants to pour into our spirits.
We know that God hears our prayers. “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.” 1 John 5:14 We know that God answers our prayers. “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8 If we trust that God does hear and answer our prayers why is it so hard to wait? I think the waiting is hard because our focus is not where it should be. I pray that God will give us all the grace to wait with Him keeping our focus on Him while resting in the stillness of His presence. ~ Tracey
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Your Turn: Have you been waiting a long time too? What is God showing you in your wait? We would love to hear your ‘waiting story.’ ~ Breath on Paper